This is the story of Ngozi Akachi, an Igbo girl from a village in
Bendel (now Delta) State of Nigeria, born sometime in the late 70’s.
Born in bad rainy weather that caused flooding and the disappearance of
some kids, livestock and property, she looked light-skinned unlike the
rest of the family. The villagers superstitiously blamed her birth for
their loss and this probably led the father to decide that she was not
his daughter, but a
spirit-child. Under this belief he starts
raping her at will when he could no longer control his sexual urges.
This very act of incest was to be the source of shame and pain for the
girl which she has to bear in silence for many years. Probably because
his son Nnamdi and wife began to notice his assaults on the girl, the
man decides to send her off to live with his brother in Lagos. This is
the secret past that took the whole of the book to be revealed.
The
story recounts how Ngozi fared in Lagos in the home of her uncle and
aunt where she was treated more like a slave than family, and then
expelled by the indignant aunt for having sex with a neighbor’s son. How
she was taken in by two ‘independent’ women who ran a beauty salon. One
of these women, Princess, had been lured to Italy by a cousin under
fake pretences of getting her good work, only to find out that the work
was that of a sex slave, and had managed to escape from the ring and get
repatriated back home. Her decision to take in Ngozi was borne out of
this experience as she’d been out in the streets too with nowhere to go
when a kindly Italian woman found her and took her home. While living
with Princess and Uloma, Ngozi discovers online dating and this led to
James King, a white British guy who claimed he loved black people. Ngozi
decides to leave Nigeria to be with James, if only this would make her
forget her past. This was in 1997.
Getting to London though, she realizes right away that it was a big
mistake. James was no rich gentleman with a house of his own, living
instead in a flat he shared with two black men. One of the men,
Providence, happened to be a Nigerian too. Rather than escaping Africa
at last, Ngozi (now going by the easier-to-pronounce name of Erika on
James’ insistence) was surprised to encounter Africa even in the UK. Her
neighbor was a Ghanaian woman (Bessie) and there was no secrecy to be
enjoyed in James’ shared flat. James took her British money and passport
without telling her, treated her like sexual property, and for the next
few months she lived under his total control and in fear of him. When
she begins to get some confidence and have friends of her own, like the
Ghanaian woman and even Providence himself, James gets jealous. He
forbids her to relate with Bessie (which she could not abide with), and
he kicks Providence out of the flat under the pretence he was raising a
family. He finally marries Ngozi in a rush to further entrap her, but
unlucky for him he starts treating her like a slave, and even physically
assaulting her. And unlucky for him she is the one to receive the mail
containing her British papers and passport when it arrives, which she
hides from him. Armed with her legal papers and unable to put up with
James’ mistreatment any more, she finally packs her bags and leaves,
going to join Providence in Leicester. From then on things finally take a
good turn for her. Providence loved her, was doing well in a flat of
his own, and treated her with respect, eventually assisting her to file
for divorce and then proposing to marry her.
It was at this point that the news of her father’s death arrived in
an email from Princess. She decides to return to Nigeria to attend the
funeral, but she was rather happy than sad that the man had finally
died. She appears to recover from the trauma of the past as she begins
telling people about it, beginning with Providence, in an “unbridled”
sort of way. On arrival in Lagos she confronts her older brother Nnamdi,
wondering how he could pretend not to have known what their dad did to
her. And even after she told her aging mother, she realized the woman
had also known all along. Then the unanswered question—why had she done
nothing at the time?